I'm so sick of people asking me if I'm okay..what am I supposed to say..
"yeah I'm just fine and dandy, you know my boyfriend who is also my
best friend is in Texas and I can't contact him right now...but you know
I'm JUST FINE." I'm not okay, I'm not, I'm miserable and depressed,
and all I do is sleep. Then to top it all off, men think that the fact that my
boyfriend is in basic means they can hit on me...how about you have
a little RESPECT...this is pissing me off, so guaranteed, the next
little boy who has the nerve to "hit me up" on facebook...I will
flip absolute shit on. How about I want people to leave me alone...thank
you to everyone who is kind enough to give me support, I really appreciate
and need it...but seriously, if I dont know you and you've NEVER been
through this before...stop. Thank you to all the military wives/girlfriends, my
boyfriends wonderful family, and my great friends...I love you all :)
Surviving Air Force BMT and Tech School
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Showing posts with label airforce girlfriend. Show all posts
07 October 2011
29 September 2011
Day 2, I am ready to fucking punch someone.
"I am a military girlfriend, there is no ring on my finger that symbolizes our
commitment. I hope every day that he will be able to call, because a 30
second phone call can bring the greatest spectrum of emotions...smiling
with tears in my eyes from so much joy and pain. My relationship is based
on a brief communication where "I love you and I am okay" speaks more than
volumes and gives me the strength to keep going."
I'm not sure why I am so angry, but I am pissed. I'm pissed at everything....I'm pissed
because I'm lonely, I'm pissed because I miss him, and I'm pissed because I can't talk
to him. Today was my first day back to school since he left and I'm even pissed about
that. I guess I am so mad because there is no guarantee that he will come home to me,
although I trust that he will. The thought of eventually being able to fall asleep in his
arms is the only thing that is getting me out of bed in the mornings. I want him to be proud
of me and what I've accomplished when he gets home. I want him to be as proud to call
me his girlfriend as I am to call him my boyfriend. I love my Airman, and I miss him
desperately already....8 weeks to go.
commitment. I hope every day that he will be able to call, because a 30
second phone call can bring the greatest spectrum of emotions...smiling
with tears in my eyes from so much joy and pain. My relationship is based
on a brief communication where "I love you and I am okay" speaks more than
volumes and gives me the strength to keep going."
I'm not sure why I am so angry, but I am pissed. I'm pissed at everything....I'm pissed
because I'm lonely, I'm pissed because I miss him, and I'm pissed because I can't talk
to him. Today was my first day back to school since he left and I'm even pissed about
that. I guess I am so mad because there is no guarantee that he will come home to me,
although I trust that he will. The thought of eventually being able to fall asleep in his
arms is the only thing that is getting me out of bed in the mornings. I want him to be proud
of me and what I've accomplished when he gets home. I want him to be as proud to call
me his girlfriend as I am to call him my boyfriend. I love my Airman, and I miss him
desperately already....8 weeks to go.
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