05 October 2011

Day 8, I still reach for him in the middle of the night..

"Goodnight, sweet dreams, and I love you with all my heart." I miss these
words more than anything.

It's awful, my heart sinks every single time I reach over and he's not there.
When I wake up and reach for him, the minute I realize his side of the bed
is cold and there's nothing but a blanket, my heart sinks. I automatically
wake completely up, and going back to sleep is nearly impossible. I
can't call him, I can't text him, the only thing I can do is write him letters
and it still hasn't even sunk in that he actually gets to read those. I sent him
pictures of us yesterday morning....I wonder if he has even got my letters yet?
I sure hope so, I miss him like crazy. I'm confused about all of this, I'm not
sure how it is supposed to make me feel. The only thing I know for
sure is that I am so lucky to have a man that amazing, one who I know
thinks about me before he goes to sleep at night...I'm blessed. I'm extremely
grateful of everything he has ever done for me, and I will never take another
hug, kiss, or cuddle for granted. I love my airman, and I hope he's careful
because he's got my heart with him in Texas.

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