Day 17, fucking A.

"When you're struggling with something, look at all the people around
you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something,
and to them, it's just as hard as what you're going through."

FML, the end. My brain and heart are in an all out battle. I mean is this normal...
whatever. I love and miss my airman. Thank you to everyone who is supporting me,
and as always, a special thank you to my readers who continuously brighten my day.
I love you all. Sorry I'm not writing much today, I just can't do it, not today. I'm
lonely and I want to wallow in my misery. Feel free to send emails to
Laceylovesdukex3@aol.com or send messages to my facebook inbox.
I'm here to give advice for anyone who needs it, and to recieve advice from
anyone willing to give it. :)

Day 8, I still reach for him in the middle of the night..

"Goodnight, sweet dreams, and I love you with all my heart." I miss these
words more than anything.

It's awful, my heart sinks every single time I reach over and he's not there.
When I wake up and reach for him, the minute I realize his side of the bed
is cold and there's nothing but a blanket, my heart sinks. I automatically
wake completely up, and going back to sleep is nearly impossible. I
can't call him, I can't text him, the only thing I can do is write him letters
and it still hasn't even sunk in that he actually gets to read those. I sent him
pictures of us yesterday morning....I wonder if he has even got my letters yet?
I sure hope so, I miss him like crazy. I'm confused about all of this, I'm not
sure how it is supposed to make me feel. The only thing I know for
sure is that I am so lucky to have a man that amazing, one who I know
thinks about me before he goes to sleep at night...I'm blessed. I'm extremely
grateful of everything he has ever done for me, and I will never take another
hug, kiss, or cuddle for granted. I love my airman, and I hope he's careful
because he's got my heart with him in Texas.