Days 32, 33, and 34, He called, and somethings wrong

"Without you in my arms I feel an emptiness in my soul, I find myself searching
the crowds for your face-I know it's an impossibility, but I cannot help
myself."

He sounded awful on the phone, he sounded tired and beat down..poor thing.
It just really worries me because he has been so upbeat the entire time, I guess
the pressure is really starting to get to him...I hope he can stay stong, it hurt so
bad to hear him sound so pitiful. Is this normal? Do all the Airmen do this, do they
all get this stressed and tired right here in week 5? We're so close to the end of
this, only 22 days to go...I'm so afraid that he's just changed his mind about us.
God, I hope not....I'm so worried about him, I need him to stay strong, just for these
last three weeks, and then he can break, I'll be there then. I feel so helpless, like
seriously...I've never felt like this before, I just want to help him but I can't.
They took 6 hours off of his town pass, and now his debit card is messed up so
he's having to borrow money from people..I know he's under a tremendous amount
of stress, I just hope it gets better for him. I hope he knows that I miss him more
than anything and I'm honestly going crazy without him here. I'm just ready for this
to be over with.

Day 31, I got two letters:)

"The reason it hurts so much to seperate is because our souls
are connected."

And he even drew pictures on there<3 I love my life, I feel so much
better now that I got more letters. &Last night I even got to see his face
because there are pictures of him up on the Air Force BMT website!
I feel so much better today, I just wanna dance! I'm extremely exhausted
today but I cannot wait until tomorrow and Sunday because I know there
is a chance that I will hear from him, it's going to be so great. 25 more days,
only 25...time is freaking flying, I already have butterflies...omfg, this is
ridiculous. I feel like doing backflips, this has been so hard but honestly,
looking back on it has made me realize that I wouldn't change a single thing;
this whole thing has made me a much stronger person, and it has made our
relationship virtually bulletproof. I'm so thankful that I have this website, and
I have SO FREAKING MANY people that are willing to support me,
please, do not stop, I greatly appreciate all of the emails and messages...
As always, feel free to email me at Laceylovesdukex3@aol.com or send
me a private message on facebook. Thank you so freaking much everyone<3

Day 30, I'm not even sure what to do with myself...

"Nothing that's worthwhile is ever easy. Remember that."

I need a letter, a phone call, or something...I just need some contact with him.
I feel so desperate, I know what I'm feeling is normal but I just can't shake this
feeling. No one can really understand it unless they've went through it themselves
so you know what, all the people who are like "military girlfriends are so pathetic,
all they do is mope around and talk about how much they miss their boyfriend
and how much they love them so much more now that they are gone." HOW ABOUT
YOU TRY IT, BITCH. Fuck you, the end....you're just mad that everyone
dumps you on your crazy ass....okay, now really, the end. Haha, sorry..I just
know the person who was making comments will be reading this, because they
have nothing better to do with their life. Okay, now really...back to seriousness,
I need to get a letter today, I just have to hear from him...I just have to.  I can't wait
until the weekend when I know that I will get my phone calls, but I especially can't
wait for the next 26 days to pass. In 26 days I will be in San Antonio, TX starting
the rest of my life<3 I am more than excited. :) I can't wait until December either,
no, I can't wait til he gets out of tech school because he swears up and down that he
is taking me wherever he goes..if it was up to him, my trip to San Antonio would be
permanent. I'm so excited about my future<3

Day 29, my mom is convinced I'm getting married and not telling her.

She's insane; she can't help it. I can't wait, 27 more days until I'm reunited
with my love<3 It's unreal that I am more than halfway through this already..
thank you to all the people who have helped support me all the way through
this, it's greatly appreciated. :) I cannot wait until I get my next letter or phone
call, it's the only thing that is keeping me fighting right now. I miss him like
a crazy person....I miss having someone to hold me and kiss me and rub
my back. I miss it so bad. I wanna cuddle up in bed with him on a Saturday
night and watch movies until neither one of us can keep our eyes open...but
that can't happen now that he's in the military. That makes me want to
punch someone, all I wanna do is cuddle. :( As always, feel free to email me
at Laceylovesdukex3@aol.com or send me a private message via facebook.
Thanks to everyone:)

Day 28, and there's only 28 more days to go.

Yup, that's right....I'm halfway through this. I am so freaking  excited! I cannot
wait until I get to San Antonio. :) I feel like a huge weight is lifted off of me now that
I know that I've made it through the worst part. I only have 28 more days until I find
out what my surprise is....I will finally know for sure what this "something pretty" is.
I also can't wait until I can go home and check the mail, I have a feeling that I will
have another letter when I get there. :) I sent him even more pictures last night, he
said that he loves getting all his pictures out every night, they are his inspiration...but
he gets pissed when one of his friends make a comment about me. Oh how I love my
extremely protective Airman<3 I can't wait, these 28 days can't go by any faster.
I'm so proud of my wonderful Airman, I can't wait to be in his arms again. <3

Days 25, 26, and 27, he's coming home for Christmas!

Yup, I am so excited, I not only get to spend Thanksgiving with my love, I will
also get to spend Christmas with him too...and trust me, I don't think I will be
leaving his side. I am so freaking happy right now....I can't wait until the next
phone call or letter...(speaking of, I got two phone calls this weekend, a 15
minute one and a 30 minute one. I also got a letter.) Contact with him is like
crack, I just can't get enough. I hate my job, it is sucking the life out of me.
And considering there isn't much life left in me to suck out, that is saying something...
I wish he would just come home, I would be so much happier. Last night when
he called, he told me to just bring all my stuff with me to San Antonio so I
could just live there because he doesn't want to be without me anymore.
How sweet, I guess there is no doubt that he loves me. I'm so excited to see
what the future holds for us. <3

Day 24, I got the sweetest letter...

"I love you, not just for now, but for always, and I dream of the day that
you'll take me in your arms again."

Yes I sure did, it was amazing, that is for sure. <3 I can't wait until I can see
him in person, I ordered my plane ticket and my hotel last night, $615. I'll be
there November 22-28 :) yay! It'll be amazing, I can't wait until I get to tell him
for sure that I've got this stuff ordered, he will be so excited. :) What I definitely
can't wait for is to run and jump into his arms....I just know that it'll feel great.
I told him in the letter I wrote him last night we can run away and get married...I
was kidding, but I think I'd be down. lmao, his mom would KILL us. Haha,
I can't wait until I get to cuddle up with him....mmm, I miss his kisses. I need kisses,
how can a person live their life without kisses? As always, feel free to email
or message me for any reason. Laceylovesdukex3@aol.com Thank you<3