"There's always a little truth behind every 'just kidding,' a little knowledge
behind every 'I don't know,' a little emotion behind every 'I don't care,' and
a little pain behind every 'it's okay.'"
Have you ever had a very serious conversation that makes you second guess yourself?
You know how confused that makes you? Well, I had about 5 of those conversations
last night, and well now....I have no idea what I want anymore. I'm talking about my
future here, this is MY future. I hate second guessing myself. Whatever, fuck emotional
turmoil. I haven't recieved any letters this week, somethings changed with him..I just
know it. Part of me really fears what his next letter will say. Maybe I'm just being
a typical, over-emotional, psychopathic woman. Yup, I think so, or maybe not.
Oh my god, I'm wigging myself out right now. When all else fails, tilt your head and
squint. (Dont ask, I don't know how that is supposed to help) Maybe when BMT
is over I will be able to figure myself out and stop second guessing every single thing
that I do. I miss my Airman, that is something that I know for sure. 20 more days
until I'm San Antonio bound. :)