Days 19-22, it's been a while...

Sorry I haven't wrote much, I've been so busy because of Christmas:) D is coming home in 2 days, I've been trying to get everything prepared for him. All my Christmas shopping is DONE haha, finally. Friday night o found out that D is getting deployed to south Korea in April, for a year and a half. :/ I'm not sure how I feel about it yet, I do know I'm devastated and could use some advice/support. Email: diaryofanairforcegirlfriend@aol.com or fb us at: http://www.Facebook.com/diaryofanairforcegirlfriend :)

Day 18, 10 days til Christmas:)

I cant wait. I'm so excited that I get to spend it with D. I know he is extremely excited that he is getting to come home. I've decided that I'm probably getting him the new call of duty. I know he wants it. What man doesn't want it? Haha. I hope he likes it as much as I hope he will. As always feel free to email me at: diaryofanairforcegirlfriend@aol.com or contact me through the diary's Facebook page: http://www.Facebook.com/diaryofanairforcegirlfriend

Day 17, one more week. :)

I can't believe he'll be home in one more week, I'm pretty excited. I'll get 12 days with
him. 12 whole freaking days...it's so weird, we used to spend every single day together
and now I'm excited for only 12 days. Haha, what is really going to suck is the three
months that he goes back for tech school. I know I've been really lucky though, I've
got to talk to him and see him more than most people. Like his graduation, he got an
extra day because of Thanksgiving, and it hasn't even been a month since I was in
Texas. I guess I should count my blessings, I know a lot of my readers will be
spending this holiday season without their Airman and my heart goes out to each
and every one of you. You can email me or message me on facebook if you need
someone to talk to; I usually get back to emails and messages pretty quick, at least
I try to. I hope everyone is doing good today. :)
Email me at: diaryofanairforcegirlfriend@aol.com
or facebook me at: http://www.facebook.com/diaryofanairforcegirlfriend

Day 16, trying to enjoy my time off of work and school

I am currently off of work and school, but of course I got called into work for tomorrow. And I'm not even getting paid for it. I still can't believe there is only 8 more days until I am reunited with my love, again! I can't wait, I can't believe it's almost Christmas. I think I have a good idea for D's Christmas present. What is everyone getting there s/o's for Christmas? Feel free to email me at: laceylovesdukex3@aol.com or contact me through the diary's fb page: http://www.Facebook.com/diaryofanairforcegirlfriend

Days 13, 14, and 15, preparing for him to come home. :)

"Because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't
mean they don't love you at all."

Yes, he is coming home soon....next wednesday to be exact. :) I have 9 days.
I can't wait for cuddle time, some people just don't know how lucky they
are because they can cuddle with their s/o all the time. I miss that. I really do.
What I'm really dreading is the fact that after he leaves again it will be a long
3 months before I will get to see him again, maybe. I might fly down to San
Antonio again while he is in tech school. It'll be very expensive, but I do think
it will be worth it. This time I think I'm going to try to get a hotel that is right
outside of the base though. I might try to make it down there for Valentines day,
how sweet would that be? This weekend was interesting...to say the least.
We kind of argued, but kind of not really argued. We got mad at each other
but both were like I'm not going to argue with you right now, so I guess that
is a good thing. I'm so afraid that this whole thing is going to blow up in my face.
Is that normal? One of my worst fears is that I'm doing all of this for nothing,
and in the end he's just going to end it. I've done all of this waiting, and dealt
with so much heartbreak, I don't know if I could take it if he did end it.
I love the boy, and I trust that he loves me, so I guess I just have to hold on
for the ride. But I'm so excited for him to come home, although I still haven't
come up with a good Christmas present for him...I'm still welcoming suggestions
from my readers. :) As always, feel free to email me at: laceylovesdukex3@aol.com
or contact me via The Diary's facebook page: http://www.facebook.com/diaryofanairforcegirlfriend

Air Force Girlfriend Designs. :)

Gonna start doing more of these, I love putting my computer genius to use. :)
I'm even going to start doing personalized ones so if you'd like send me
an email: Laceylovesdukex3@aol.com or contact me via facebook at:
http://www.facebook.com/diaryofanairforcegirlfriend

Day 12, I'm begining to accept this.

"I'm not a perfect girl. I'll annoy you, piss you off, say stupid stuff, and then take
 it all back. But all that aside, you'll never find a girl who loves you more than me."

I'm just starting to realize that this is how it's always going to be. A few short phone calls
while he is off duty, and then no contact for a while. When he gets deployed, it will
be worse. It's a tough pill to swallow. I love this man though, so I'm willing to accept
all of this. All I want in return is a promise that he's not going anywhere. I've already
let him know that I'm not going to play the games that some Airmen do when they are
in tech school, I'm not doing the break up and get back together 50 times thing. I
know he'd never do something that immature, but I honestly couldn't deal with the
emotional trauma of all that. Now if something was wrong, like he just got home
from combat and had PTSD, I would stick through anything to stay with him, but
I'm not dealing with a bunch of nonsense for no good reason. Don't get me wrong,
I love him more than I love even myself, but I've been through too much in my life
to stick around through bullshit I have the option to bow out of. With that said,
that is my personal opinion, you are entitled to agree or disagree. I have respect for
the women who can deal with the many break ups and still stay around, it takes a
determined person to do that. I'm not trying to be disrespectful to women who
have dealt with it, I'm just saying that I'm not going to, but another thing is that every
circumstance is different. As you all should know by now, I'm blunt about the way
I feel and I'm not going to hold back. It's a blessing and a curse. Of course all of
you love it, or you wouldn't still be reading. :) I've been debating on whether
or not to start writing D letters again, I know we can talk on the phone now, but
I love the idea of pen and paper love letters. I wonder if he will even write back?
He better. So I think I'm decided, I will be writing him letters again. Another thing
is I am still completely lost about what to get him for Christmas. I usually have all kind
of cute ideas by now, but I'm still completely lost. The only thing I've done for him
is print him out every Diary of an Air Force Girlfriend entry and make a book out of
them, which I'm printing and updating every day for him.
As always you can email: laceylovesdukex3@aol.com or you can visit The Diary's
facebook page at: http://www.facebook.com/diaryofanairforcegirlfriend

Thanks to all of you, I love hearing from you guys!
-Lacey :)

How to survive AFBMT.

I just realized that I haven't really posted any tips on how to survive AFBMT.
This is for the readers with an Airman currently in BMT. :)

How to survive when your other half is in AFBMT: (Plus some tips for grad week)

• Stay busy, choose a big project and stick to it.
• Join a support group. (Airman Swag, Military Issued Girlfriends, ect.)
• Talk to other military s/o's, they can help answer questions.
• Pamper yourself. (Admit it, you don't have much time to get your hair and nails done when your Airman is at home.)
• Keep a diary, maybe not a public one, but maybe keep one for him to see when he gets home. OR just keep a personal one that no one else can see.
• Go out for a night on the town, go dancing, go out to dinner, take your girl friends and have a good time!
• It's normal to feel guilty when you have fun while he is stuck in miserable BMT, but you deserve it.
• Curl up with a good book, or watch a good movie. (I do not recommend Dear John, I cried for hours after watching it. Good movie, just not a brilliant idea to watch it while he's in basic and your only communication is letters.)
• Stay strong.
• Write him a letter every night before bed, write to him as if your talking to him on the phone about your day.
• When you send him letters include pictures of yourself, you guys together, or of their pets.
• Send him funny pictures, D got a kick out of it and so did the rest of the men in his flight.
• Make sure to always tell him that you love him, reassure that you are there for him and you aren't going any where.
• When you get to talk to him on the phone, joke with him, there isn't much time for laughing in basic.
• If you can't wait until you get to kiss him, hold his hand, or give him hugs, tell him that. Let him know you miss him, he needs that reassurance.
• The simple fact is, many girls end things with their Airman while they are in basic, you need to let him know that you are not that girl.
• It's gonna be hard, you've got to put on your big girl panties and deal with it. You have to get up in the morning and kick ass! You have to be independent.
• Buy yourself some AF pride gear, especially if you are going to BMT graduation!
• Always let him know how proud you are of him. He needs your support.
• Stay faithful, you will have moments of weakness, but don't do it.
• If you go to his graduation, buy him some candy. (Trust me, buy A LOT)
• At the coin ceremony, he isn't allowed to move until you touch him and talk to him; even then, he will be afraid to move.
• Yell for him during the Airman's run, make signs, wear air force gear, you won't be alone.
• It might take you a while to recognize your Airman at the graduation ceremony, don't feel bad, they all look the same with their shaved heads.
• Take a ton of pictures!!
• Your Airman will pretty much talk a different language during the first few hours, just tell them to put it in civilian terms.
• ABSOLUTELY no PDA in uniform, don't take it personally. Don't even do it off base, off duty MTI's will bitch them out in public. (holding hands and interlocking arms is PDA)
• Don't touch your Airman's hat, don't do it, it will piss them off.
• When you visit dorms, if there is something shiny, do not step on it or touch it.
• Make sure your Airman makes curfew.
• Don't do anything that can be taken as flirting with his fellow Airmen.
• Honesty is key when it comes to military relationships.

If you are a military s/o who has survived BMT and you have any tips to add, feel free to email me
at laceylovesdukex3@aol.com or visit the Diary's facebook page and post it there.
http://www.facebook.com/diaryofanairforcegirlfriend

Day 11, "You know what would make you feel better?"

Last night despite the fact that he was in a terrible mood, we talked for like an
hour and a half. He said that he is absolutely would not take me on a carriage
ride, so everytime he would start talking about how he is in a terrible mood,
I'd answer with: "You know what would make you feel better? Taking me on
a carriage ride." Although I am completely kidding, I could careless if he takes
me on a carriage ride, I was just giving him a hard time. So I think I'm pretty
much decided on sexy Mrs. Clause, almost every single email I got voted for
Mrs. Clause so I'm excited to go get my little costume. :) I do believe my
airman will love it. Of course he will love any outfit as long as I'm in it. :)
<3

Day 10, I'm lucky.

I'm lucky I have such a great man in my life. Last night we were talking and he
kept telling me how lucky he thinks he is to have me, and I was sitting there
thinking "no, wtf...I'm so lucky to have him." Needless to say, I'm so excited to
see him again. After everything I have been through in my life, I finally feel good
about this, I feel good about our relationship. Maybe everything will finally fall
into place for me, lord knows I need it. So we're in a debate right now, will
I dress up as a sexy Mrs Clause or a sexy elf for Christmas? hmm. Any
suggestions? Send them to laceylovesdukex3@aol.com or to
http://www.facebook.com/diaryofanairforcegirlfriend  :) Thanks for reading<3

Day 9, he apologizes...

This morning he called me and apologized for not being able to talk to me much. It was really sweet, it made my day...even though I am sick and couldn't even go
to work. I'm so excited....14 days. :) I hope I'm better by then, heading to the doctor
again today to go get some more testing done to see what is going on and why this
antibiodic isn't helping. I want some chicken noodle soup. Also, I want to address
something that has been bothering me. Military significant others (girlfriends AND
wives) should support each other, we are all fighting the same fight so why tear
each other down? All of our men are fighting for the same thing, so why are we
arguing amongst each other? Yes, I'm a military girlfriend, I'm not a wife, there is
not a ring on my finger. BUT I love my airman more than I love myself, I've been
with him for 4 years. It would KILL me if something happened to him just like it
would if I were his wife, it hurts me that we spend so much time apart just like it
would if I were his wife, I worry about him and his safety every single day just like
it would if I were his wife, and I love him with my entire heart just like I would if I
were his wife. So why are we spending so much time judging each other and sticking
our noses in the air? We're doing the same thing just in a different way. Thank you
everyone for all your continued support, as always feel free to email me at:
laceylovesdukex3@aol.com or contact me through our facebook page:
http://www.facebook.com/diaryofanairforcegirlfriend

Days 6, 7, and 8.I'm begining to like this.

It's not as good as seeing him every day, but being able to hear his voice every day is
pretty awesome. :) I still wish I was in San Antonio, I loved San Antonio...I belong in
Texas. I'm having a weak day today, I've been really sick and I literally just feel like
laying around all day. I'm surprised I even got out of the bed today, this bronchitis is
kicking my ass. It is so great waking up to texts and phone calls from my Airman, even
if he blows my phone up when I'm at work. I prefer my phone ringing off the hook more
than no contact at all. I have like 14 days until he's coming home for Christmas<3
Yay for spending Christmas with my Airman! :) I know some of my fellow military
girlfriends/wives will be spending this Christmas without their military man so I know that
I am truly blessed to have him this holiday season. My heart goes out to the families
that will be spending the holidays without their loved ones, I can't imagine the feeling.
Always know that I am here to offer advice for you, you can email me at
Laceylovesdukex3@aol.com or you can contact me through the Diary of an Air
Force Girlfriend facebook page: http://www.facebook.com/diaryofanairforcegirlfriend

Day 5, I'm sick and I need to be loved on.

“In times of grief and sorrow I will hold you and rock you and take your grief and make it my own. When you cry I cry and when you hurt I hurt. And together we will try to hold back the floods to tears and despair and make it through the potholed street of life”



He's all the way in Texas, he can't love on me if he is in Texas. :( I need to be taken care
of right now. :( I hate this being apart thing, it's terrible. Stupid doctor put me on these
very strong antibiodics and now my stomach is killing me. But on another note, I'm going
Christmas shopping today and I'm super excited. I don't know what to get my Airman
for Christmas, I want it to be special. Like super special, I want it to be something he
looks at and is like awww. I want it to be something he never wants to be without.
email me your ideas at laceylovesdukex3@aol.com or post them to Diary of an
Air Force Girlfriends facebook page! www.facebook.com/diaryofanairforcegirlfriend
(did I forget to mention that we have expanded to facebook?) I highly encourage
you guys to join on facebook, I hate that I'm the only person that get's to have contact
with you guys. You could offer each other a lot of support. :) I'm so excited, 18 days
until I will be in my lovers arms again. I told him that I am going to attack him in the
airport and make a big scene. :) I cannot wait. Last night I did the cutest thing, I took
a deck of cards and on each one I wrote one reason why I love him...so now I have
52 reasons why I love him and I'm mailing them to him this weekend in his care package.
I hope he likes it.<3

Day 4, I HATE tech school, but I kinda love it.

It's hard getting used to being able to hear from him every day, because it's not very
dependable contact. We'll be talking and then he abruptly has to end the conversation
because he has to get something done. (details, pick up school supplies, ect.) He has
this newfound freedom and it scares the hell out of me, I know this is normal. I'm just
afraid he's going to do something stupid and mess his career up, or worse, our
relationship. It's really hard for me to accept that his job ALWAYS comes before me,
even though I've been around since before he started with the Air Force. I'm proud of
him, I'm proud of the sacrifices he's making to protect our country, but it is hard.
I love this man so I'm willing to endure it, the pain, the heartache, and even the lonely
nights. But that's all a part of being a military s/o, I have to put on my big girl panties
and deal with it. I have 19 days until he comes home for Christmas!! 19 days until
I get to cuddle with him OVERNIGHT, yes OVERNIGHT!!!! I will be able to lay
my head on his chest and sleep, I'll be able to play tug of war over the blankets again,
I'll be able to nudge him because his snoring is RIDICULOUS. I can't wait until
I get to ride in his truck and roll my eyes at his god awful singing. I love this boy,
and I'm so excited to see him again. <3