"Because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't
mean they don't love you at all."
Yes, he is coming home soon....next wednesday to be exact. :) I have 9 days.
I can't wait for cuddle time, some people just don't know how lucky they
are because they can cuddle with their s/o all the time. I miss that. I really do.
What I'm really dreading is the fact that after he leaves again it will be a long
3 months before I will get to see him again, maybe. I might fly down to San
Antonio again while he is in tech school. It'll be very expensive, but I do think
it will be worth it. This time I think I'm going to try to get a hotel that is right
outside of the base though. I might try to make it down there for Valentines day,
how sweet would that be? This weekend was interesting...to say the least.
We kind of argued, but kind of not really argued. We got mad at each other
but both were like I'm not going to argue with you right now, so I guess that
is a good thing. I'm so afraid that this whole thing is going to blow up in my face.
Is that normal? One of my worst fears is that I'm doing all of this for nothing,
and in the end he's just going to end it. I've done all of this waiting, and dealt
with so much heartbreak, I don't know if I could take it if he did end it.
I love the boy, and I trust that he loves me, so I guess I just have to hold on
for the ride. But I'm so excited for him to come home, although I still haven't
come up with a good Christmas present for him...I'm still welcoming suggestions
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